Preparing hearts and Bodies for Birth.

Jeremiah 1:5- “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, and before you were born I consecrated you; I appointed you a prophet to the nations.” 

Each life is precious, from conception to natural death.    This verse and so many others like it describe a God who knows us before we were even formed, before we were even a sparkle in our Daddy's eye, God knew us, and knew us by name.  This is why Infertility treatments and the babies we have lost meant something to us, yes, they may have never entered my womb, but they were conceived, and they were all human beings, seen and loved by the God our creator.  Each life is precious.
  Baby K#4 is due to arrive any day, and as the contractions I have been having due to an irritable uterus get stronger, this little life is so precious to our family at this time.  This baby may not know it, but it comes at a time where life weighs heavy on us, as we remember and ponder the memories of Auntie Katie.   God knew before this baby was even conceived the significance that this baby will have in our lives.  When this baby was conceived, I prayed at that moment for our 4th miracle, and I prayed that even though we lost our Last embryo, just the day before, that my uterus and Heart would be filled with the Joy that only a baby can bring, there is this amazing yet so daunting, an unexplainable feeling that comes over a mommy that finds out that her uterus carries new life. Its scary, and yet so incredibly unbelievable, that two people can make love, and create a human being. After years of infertility, thinking we may never have the chance to be parents infertility makes you appreciate just how complicated conceiving can actually be, it is something taken for granted by so many.  However for us, it was something that seemed so out of reach for so long, and to have 3 natural conceptions is such an amazing miracle to us.  
I am nervous about labour, I am nervous about post birth complications, I am nervous about being a mommy to 4 children, and many more other things that this worry wart thinks about. 
I have done all I can to be ready for it all, my house is clean, baby stuff is all out and ready, the birth tub is ready to be filled, and my heart and mind are ready to get the fear and anticipation over with and get this baby out of my body and into my arms. I will admit that it has been really hard to get excited about having this baby the last month or so.  Because with it comes the reality that my sister who attended my last birth and used her skills as a massage therapist to get through labour, will be missing.  We will have another Auntie attending this time, for that I am excited, because this will be her first experience of witnessing new life being born.  Having witnessed my brothers birth, it is something unforgettable, and the details become obsolete but the miracle that the process is, is something that sticks in your mind.  It is beautiful, terrifying, disgusting( the physical mess part), never goes to plan exactly, incredible, and just plain Amazing.  
Each birth that I have had has made me realize just how much our bodies are capable of, how precious my life is to these little human beings that I am raising.  Life is Precious! 
As I bounce on my exercise ball trying to get labour going, I am thinking about The God who has lovingly knit this baby together, and the little hands and little feet that are about to change our world. My heart is filled with a wide range of emotions, and my trust is in Him; Who knows the moment this baby will be born, who knows this child's name, soul and future. 

Life is precious!! EVERY LIFE!!!

Mommy Ak