4 Little Girls!

Life with 4 little birdies, has been an BIG adjustment,  I find myself in awe that I have 4 girls.  I remember a time when I was little and had all my dolls lined up and all of them were girls.  Now my reality is just that.  I have had people say to me, are you going to try for a boy...My answer is, well if there is a 100% chance of having a boy I might consider it...but seeing as that is not an option, NOPE!  

I just want to start out saying, I am not disappointed that we had another girl, in fact it feels so right.  God has a plan for us, and 7 years ago we wondered if His plans ever included us being parents. Today I snuggle beside my 4 little girls.  I am blessed beyond measure.  I don't feel bad for my hubby, and why should I.  He has lots of estrogen in our house yes, but he is Daddy to 4 beautiful little girls, who look up to him to guide them through life, to help them choose a husband some day, to teach them to fish, and farm, and do life with a Daddy who loves them so deeply.  Daddy will always be there first love.  

I was told while I was pregnant I hope you have a boy...But when I get to thinking about that...my answer at the time was I hope so to for daddy. But deep in my heart something told us that it was another girl, and we were at peace with it either way, the day I went into labour.  I wanted my hubby to have a son to carry his name, but God has other plans. When we were in the midst of our last embryo thaw, we were at a store, and there in the parking lot, my hubby saw a licence plate, we were talking about what we thought our next baby would be, and there on the Licence plate said. "4GIRLS4YOU".  God has a sense of humour, and He knows best, and we must trust this.  I was never blessed with sisters, and my daughters have built in best friends. I know this to be true because my sister in laws share that kind of bond as well.   The boys will eventually come, and perhaps they will bring with them, new and beautiful things to our family, that Daddy can enjoy.  In the mean time,  Daddy holds his littlest peanut wrapped in a pink blanket, kissing her little head, and whispering sweet things to her.  A daughter melts any Daddy's heart, and we both feel so blessed, and we are ready to raise our daughters the best we can.  We know that we will most likely never be pregnant again, and we are choosing that, for my health, both physically and mentally.  Me and Pregnancy and then recovery do not mix very well.  I am really struggling to recover.  

Mentally, I am really struggling to find my new groove, mostly because My brain wants me to do lots, and my list of things to do keeps growing...However physically my body is saying Nope, you can't do that and you really shouldn't do that, you will be sorry you did do that.  It is hard when you have conflicting actions going on in your head, and you just would like things to speed up recovery wise, but you know you have to take you time, because this baby was not completed in a day, and I will not recover in a day either.  Its gonna take time...Patience is not my strong suit. 

In the mean time,  I wear my belly Bandit,  take it easy as best I can with 4 little girls. I am loving this life that I have been given.  I am Blessed, and I do not wish my little girl was a boy.  She is perfect, and beautiful, and she will bring joy to our lives, and she is not seen as inferior or unwanted because she is girl, but she is just how God planned our family to be.  I want her to know that she was wanted for who God intended her to be, and that is our daughter!!  

God Bless, 

Mommy AK