Teach me to Abide.
There are times in our lives that seem and feel like a hurricane, like everything is out of control and you are desperately clinging to the hope that God is just going to calm the storm; However, he doesn't. Your heart turns to stone, when you don't understand why. My mother died 13 years ago, and I watched my faithful, abiding mother, who Loved Jesus so much, I watched my best friend, fade into nothing, crying out in agony to her God to heal her. He did; but when she walked into Heaven. I was so at peace that she was home, no more cancer, no more pain, not more tears. Yet I was so broken, so lost, so shattered. I withdrew from all the things I loved. I hid inside my heart, I hid my talents, I hid my emotions, and cried only in the shower, or when I could not contain it inside anymore, and I would dump it all on my poor hubby who had to try to hold me up. After she died it felt like everything and everyone around me was just to much to handle. Motherhood, took everything
