When motherhood makes you think Where in the World is my Brain!
That moment when Motherhood calls your name, and your number is up, and you look down at that positive pregnancy test, or hear the nurses voice say, You are pregnant...your first brain cells disappear. They call it "pregnancy brain". I think the baby begins taking your brain cells the moment of conception. You forget what you were doing, your are emotional, and over zealous about a lot of things that don't really matter, but they matter to you.
After having 4 babies, I can now say that my brain is nearly useless...I can't concentrate or focus very well, it could be due to the sleep deprivation, that I am feeling at 4 weeks postpartum. Although my 4th little one, is a better sleeper at this age then her sisters. So I can't complain to much. But my ability to make quick decisions is inhibited by my lack of focus.
I am overwhelmed by the tasks of each day. Who knew that emptying a dishwasher could take me all day, or that the load of laundry in my washing machine that has been washed 4 times now because I keep forgetting about it, while the laundry loads are stacking up in our laundry hampers, could bog me down, but it does. My concept of time, is out the window. I think it is just part of the adjustment to having a new baby in the house...right? A new baby can be overwhelming no matter what baby it is your first or your 10th, it is one more little person to divide your attention with, and new baby's need a lot of attention, and cuddles, and time to Nurse. I have lazy latchers, and nursing always takes a little longer then I think it should but this eats up time of my day. Today it was noon and I was still in my PJ's. Even though I had been up since 7 and was up twice during the night. It is just one of those things, that I have to get used to, that I can't put some toys in front of my new born to play yet, and so I am on the hook.
I also have been dealing with an unusual amount of stress, emotional and physical. My hubby just had surgery 5 days ago to have his gallbladder out, and so I have had to take on all the heavy lifting. our 2 year old is 43 pounds...she is our tank! With the deaths of 2 family members and the birth of our daughter and my husbands surgery it has been a little much for my brain to take. It is wanting to tap out. recovery from birth has been a challenge, the weight is not melting off as it has in previous births, I feel HUGE still, and I struggle with my self image, and I HATE having to wear preggo clothing when I am not preggo anymore. However that is my reality, and I must come to grips that I am on my first pregnancy, and I have had a lot going on, and I have to cut myself some grace space, and take one day at a time. It has been frustrating to say the least, I often in the last few days, just melt down and the tears start rolling. I am also aware that I am at risk for Post partum depression and I am feeling some of it returning. So again, I need to cut myself some slack and work hard at eating right, and the healing and weight will slowly come off. In the mean time, I am in search of my brain, and hopefully soon that will return as well. I remember laughing at my mom for being air headed at times...looks like the tables have turned!
Blessings
Mommy AK
After having 4 babies, I can now say that my brain is nearly useless...I can't concentrate or focus very well, it could be due to the sleep deprivation, that I am feeling at 4 weeks postpartum. Although my 4th little one, is a better sleeper at this age then her sisters. So I can't complain to much. But my ability to make quick decisions is inhibited by my lack of focus.
I am overwhelmed by the tasks of each day. Who knew that emptying a dishwasher could take me all day, or that the load of laundry in my washing machine that has been washed 4 times now because I keep forgetting about it, while the laundry loads are stacking up in our laundry hampers, could bog me down, but it does. My concept of time, is out the window. I think it is just part of the adjustment to having a new baby in the house...right? A new baby can be overwhelming no matter what baby it is your first or your 10th, it is one more little person to divide your attention with, and new baby's need a lot of attention, and cuddles, and time to Nurse. I have lazy latchers, and nursing always takes a little longer then I think it should but this eats up time of my day. Today it was noon and I was still in my PJ's. Even though I had been up since 7 and was up twice during the night. It is just one of those things, that I have to get used to, that I can't put some toys in front of my new born to play yet, and so I am on the hook.
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I also have been dealing with an unusual amount of stress, emotional and physical. My hubby just had surgery 5 days ago to have his gallbladder out, and so I have had to take on all the heavy lifting. our 2 year old is 43 pounds...she is our tank! With the deaths of 2 family members and the birth of our daughter and my husbands surgery it has been a little much for my brain to take. It is wanting to tap out. recovery from birth has been a challenge, the weight is not melting off as it has in previous births, I feel HUGE still, and I struggle with my self image, and I HATE having to wear preggo clothing when I am not preggo anymore. However that is my reality, and I must come to grips that I am on my first pregnancy, and I have had a lot going on, and I have to cut myself some grace space, and take one day at a time. It has been frustrating to say the least, I often in the last few days, just melt down and the tears start rolling. I am also aware that I am at risk for Post partum depression and I am feeling some of it returning. So again, I need to cut myself some slack and work hard at eating right, and the healing and weight will slowly come off. In the mean time, I am in search of my brain, and hopefully soon that will return as well. I remember laughing at my mom for being air headed at times...looks like the tables have turned! Blessings
Mommy AK
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