When the Ball drops!! Good Bye 2017!!!
2017, a year of unimaginable heart ache, completion, growth, change, laughter, tears, pain, surgery, broken arm, sickness,a home birth, baby, giggles, stress, learning, growing, weird weather, recovery, and soul searching. There are parts I will treasure, and there are moments, I would rather forget. It has been a year that has tested our limits of sanity, composer, and love.
It has brought us closer to some that we love and further away from others. It has been a year of finding out who true friends are, and the blessings that they can give. It has been a year to which physical pain was an every day battle. My hubby dealt with significant joint and muscle pains with out any explanation. He ended up with a gallbladder attack and required surgery. My pregnancy resulted in a separated pelvis, and the pain was so intense at times, that walking was difficult, my birth was at home but was back labour and my back has taken a long time to recover from that, I also have separated ab muscles on top of it all. Frustration, has been a battle for myself, and hubby. We have had our share of bad days, but together helped each other thru it all.
We were blessed with our 4th and final baby, to complete our family. We are no longer going to embark on another pregnancy, for my health, and his sanity ;). In saying that, our 4th little girl was conceived on the wake of loosing our last frozen embryo through the thawing process, we had loss, and yet we had gain. I prayed very hard that God would bless us with our 4th baby, he answered but not in the way we had thought it would go. Miss Maddie Mouse, is a true blessing and even more so, in the event of loosing her Auntie this year.
Our girls have started on their 2nd year of homeschooling, and It has been awesome to see them grow and learn new things and find confidence in who they are. I have been so impressed by them. They also have tested my limits of sanity at times, but we have made it through 1/2 the school year. I know what we need to work on in the coming year.
We can only hope that next year God will grant us a year of recovery, and not so much heart ache and loss, but growth and good change, and learning. So many of us focus on a new start, but it is God that makes all things new regardless of the New year. It has been a year that has forever changed us as a family, as a couple, as individuals.
I love to sing, and After years of voice lessons, and competing, I have really let that talent sit idol at least in front of others for a long time. But there are 3 songs that I love, but have a hard time singing, as in getting through it with out a lump in my throat.
1.) Shine on us Click the title to hear! A song that I have heard and sang with others for over 20 years and is still one of my favourites ever. I sang it with Katie for my own wedding. It was the first of many duets I did with Katie. I pray that this song will be true for us this year. This song still means so much to me. I will never on this earth sing with Katie again, and that breaks my heart so much!! With in days before her passing she asked if I would be interested in singing with her in the future at her church for the children ministry there. I will probably never get to do that.
2.) I Can Only Imagine: Click the title to hear it! This is a hard song for me to sing. I have always had a fear of death, and I have watched others face it, and walk into it with no fear of the unknown, but with such deep faith that I envied. Before my mom died she told me that she was not afraid to die, but afraid to leave those behind. This song, makes my heart leap, and I get very emotional, when I think of reaching heavens Gate, my fear vanishes when I hear, or sing this song, but it makes it hard to sing, and make it through. This year, we faced death, and anguish, but we can only imagine the Joy and beauty Kate now has.
3.) Blessings Click the title to hear it! I could talk about this song but think the song speaks for its self, please give a listen. God loves us so much!
It is my prayer and my hope that God will make all things new in my life. That the hurt in my life, would be only stepping stones to better knowledge, to greater joy, and understanding, and peace in all the hard times yet to come. I pray that 2018, would be a good year that my heart would be opened to who God wants me to be, to not be ashamed of my mistakes, my mental illness, that I would take the steps to put my relationship in my Christ first, and build all else on that. I am guilty of not putting Him first, and this year has certainly brought light to where in my life I need to work on. I pray that 2018 will be a year that life is breathed back into my heart, that it would not be a year of survival, but renewal and Loving Life. Its easy to Love Life when every thing goes well, but not so easy when you are up against the wall. The Hurt & The Healer.( click title to watch) There are so many songs that can sum up this year, so I know that I am not alone in this tough year's closing. When the Ball drops in NYC, and the clocks strike midnight around the globe. I know that a New Year has begun, the old year is gone, the hurts from last year are still with me in the New year, but I pray that I will face them differently, not on my own strength but In Him, the Healer.
GOOD BYE 2017
Blessings
Deeds K
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I love to sing, and After years of voice lessons, and competing, I have really let that talent sit idol at least in front of others for a long time. But there are 3 songs that I love, but have a hard time singing, as in getting through it with out a lump in my throat.
1.) Shine on us Click the title to hear! A song that I have heard and sang with others for over 20 years and is still one of my favourites ever. I sang it with Katie for my own wedding. It was the first of many duets I did with Katie. I pray that this song will be true for us this year. This song still means so much to me. I will never on this earth sing with Katie again, and that breaks my heart so much!! With in days before her passing she asked if I would be interested in singing with her in the future at her church for the children ministry there. I will probably never get to do that.
2.) I Can Only Imagine: Click the title to hear it! This is a hard song for me to sing. I have always had a fear of death, and I have watched others face it, and walk into it with no fear of the unknown, but with such deep faith that I envied. Before my mom died she told me that she was not afraid to die, but afraid to leave those behind. This song, makes my heart leap, and I get very emotional, when I think of reaching heavens Gate, my fear vanishes when I hear, or sing this song, but it makes it hard to sing, and make it through. This year, we faced death, and anguish, but we can only imagine the Joy and beauty Kate now has.
3.) Blessings Click the title to hear it! I could talk about this song but think the song speaks for its self, please give a listen. God loves us so much!
It is my prayer and my hope that God will make all things new in my life. That the hurt in my life, would be only stepping stones to better knowledge, to greater joy, and understanding, and peace in all the hard times yet to come. I pray that 2018, would be a good year that my heart would be opened to who God wants me to be, to not be ashamed of my mistakes, my mental illness, that I would take the steps to put my relationship in my Christ first, and build all else on that. I am guilty of not putting Him first, and this year has certainly brought light to where in my life I need to work on. I pray that 2018 will be a year that life is breathed back into my heart, that it would not be a year of survival, but renewal and Loving Life. Its easy to Love Life when every thing goes well, but not so easy when you are up against the wall. The Hurt & The Healer.( click title to watch) There are so many songs that can sum up this year, so I know that I am not alone in this tough year's closing. When the Ball drops in NYC, and the clocks strike midnight around the globe. I know that a New Year has begun, the old year is gone, the hurts from last year are still with me in the New year, but I pray that I will face them differently, not on my own strength but In Him, the Healer.
GOOD BYE 2017
Blessings
Deeds K
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